when the shoes on the other foot.

I find it very interesting to see how feelings and emotions change depending on what side of the fence you are on. It’s easy to lie until you are the one being lied to and easy to steal until something has been stolen from you. I know so many girls who couldn’t care less if a guy has a girlfriend, but if it was their relationship that was being threatened they would be really defensive and upset. I know people who cheat but if they were cheated on they would never ever forgive the other person. I wish that people could just stop and put themselves in the other persons shoes before they make bad choices. Just stop for one second and think about how they would feel if someone did that to them. So many people I know are selfish, they are willing to risk hurting people they ‘care’ about as long as it benefits them. I’m not going to lie, I have fallen into patterns like this before I knew what it was like to be on the other side. I wish I could have just realized this before though. Its a pretty simple concept, just think before you act, that’s all I ask.

work hard//play hard.

April is going to be excruciatingly busy. I have to start thinking about picking my summer class(es), do a shit load of school work, and start studying for my real estate exam again. But I also have so many exciting things going on this month! I’m going to see play this weekend with my mom and siblings, then I get to see Lady Gaga the week after and then I leave for the Disney Cruise on their new ship, The Dream. I am excited to be busy. I have been lazy and sluggish the past two weeks and its time to get moving again.

change of heart.

In the past when I’ve thought about my future I see a husband and kids. I’ve always been very excited for marriage and the idea of starting a family. Lately, I’m not so sure though. As I’ve watched my parents divorce, along with many other couples they know, I’ve realized that nothing gold can stay. We as humans, are ever changing creatures. Our values constantly change, we are always searching for the next big thing and we start feeling trapped quickly. Expecting one person to stay by your side forever is a lot to ask for. Humans need freedom, and many times relationships just repress all the things you care about. Couples try to change each other to fit a certain mold and people become lost in these personalities that have been created for them. Many people fall out of love and they either learn to ‘put up’ with each other or they leave. Maybe I’d be more optimistic about the idea if I didn’t see so much misery around me. It’s hard to believe in something that has such a great chance of failing. I want nothing more than to fall in love and have a companion throughout my life, but I don’t want to end up with resentment, hatred, and loneliness. I’m not swearing marriage off, I just am undecided as of late.

having a serious ‘what is my life’ moment

I’m sitting at McDonalds nomming, alone, with my laptop on Tumblr.

forever alone.

I wish i had some sort of backbone.

Perhaps I’ll grow one over time.

Steak n’ Shake

can i haz?

I went to ALL three of my classes today.

This is a rare occurrence and I am proud of myself. Maybe I will shoot for the stars, if you will, and go to ALL of my classes for the WHOLE WEEK. Ya know, push myself, strive for greatness.

Wouldn’t want to push myself too hard though, might strain something.

I like his blog.

thegoingawayparty.

Plans For Le Evening:

1. Take a long hot steamy shower where I plan on loudly singing the song that is stuck in my head at the moment.

2. Put on an over sized t-shirt, not in a pants kind of mood.

3. Print out my Anthropology paper that I am oh so proud of.

4. Put on Charlie Barlett, snuggle into bed and attempt to write a few journals for English.

5. Sleep like a fucking bear.

I think I need to start expecting less, that way I won’t be so disappointed all the time.